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Marketing research.. the perfect course to have after writing my bachelor thesis.. COME ON UMEÅ! This is the exact same thing as we did for 10 weeks during the spring semester. All we do on the lectures now is to draw in our notebooks instead of writing down something important. We play games, we send messages (sometimes to each other in order to have something to do) and we try to stay awake. The whole course is based on a quantitative research, i'm so excited, i have never done that before!! Snooooooooore!!
Exam - Friday. Two days left.. panic? Yes! But do i care enough to study more effective or just study more? Nope.. I don't know why but i have to feel really pressured to study hard. That's why i end up in panic the day before the exam.. but hey, there's two days left until i panic for real.. ahhhh!!
When you have been at uni for a little too long you start to act strange. I can totally see myself going trough all the typical steps of a perfect study-day. First you are totally focused and you concentrate on getting your studies done in the most efficient way. After a while you realize that what you are doing is kind of boring.. you start to lose your focus. Then it's time for lunch (12.00), YEI! Since you have been quite efficient the first hours you are really hungry.. you eat all your food too fast and you suffer from "food-coma" in a while. After the food you try to make it two more hours until it's time for FIKA!! During the fika you meet up with some friends and you are all at the same stage "having the most wierd sense of humor". During the fika it just gets worse and worse.. it's not even a point to go back to your studies.. but of course you do it anyway. So, the last two hours of your study-day ends in laughter and playing around acting like a 8 year old.
Now i have described my upcoming days until the exam is done on friday, 18.00.
I don't know really.. mostly my mind repeats the same line "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger". I've been thinking a lot about it lately but i have not come up with something smart or something that helps me to clear my mind.
I guess you can say that i'm quite empty nowadays but as i would have said last spring semester; It's a part of life! ..or as me and Ida would say it; Life is a fart and then you die! ;)
Recovering time is almost over. I can now walk faster than a snail and i don't feel that i'm out of breath every time I walk up or down a stair.
Going away to an island with the buddy group for the weekend. Looking forward! Metting people again.. aahh!! I seriously can't be alone for too long, i start to act wierd and to call EVERYBODY and i'm talking to myself even more than i'm use to (which btw is possible!).
Well, I guess that there's only one thing left to say; So long suckers!!
Ok, I can't help it and I have to admit it.. i really really like this song! I get calm when i listen to it.
I looked it up on google and if I got it right the lyrics is about a guy who tells a girl that she can't talk to him anymore and that she needs to forget about him. He also tells her not to follow him or to pester him. Her answer is "de ginete" - It's impossible! She loves him and will become his shadow because she can't just forget about him from one day to another.
There's something special about this song, something that i so right and I love it!
Ok, this is the second time that i just put my purse away to go dancing and it gets stolen. It's not even a surprise Irene.. wake up and realise that people are STUPID. Why do i have to be so naive and think "no, people don't do that, they're honest and nice.. all of them". Wrong wrong wrong.. God tried once again to make me accept the fact the people acutally steal. Now my Visa-card, my drivers license, my phone and my camera is gone! Well done Irene, i'm proud of you... NOT! The most annoying thing is that they can't use my VISA-card, my drivers license or my phone. The only thing that is useful for them is my camera.. Fine, if you want my camera, take it!! But seriously, don't be so stupid and selfish that you steal stuff that you know i'm going to cancel.. What did they expect? That i would let them have it without doing anything about it? NO F*CKING WAY!!!
Oh my God.. they really are stupid and brainless!!
Finally! Tomorrow we will, for the first time, meet the new Erasmus students. We had a meeting today with all the buddies and we find out that we are going to be aruond 6 buddies and 30 Erasmus in each group. Wow, that's really alot since we are 17 groups!
So, now I will have the opportunity to see everything from a different point of view. I got the pleasure to become a buddy instead of an Erasmus. Good or bad..?
The question i'm asking myself is.. "is the grass really greener on the other side?"
To feel that my life is worth living I need to plan things.. mostly to have something to look forward to but also because i'm Irene.. Irene always have a plan!
So.. I felt kind of depressed because i had to go back to dark and cold Umeå but today I applyed me and Sheila as buddies for the exchange students who's coming to umeå this fall! Woho, finally i get to meet some Erasmus studets again! And.. i also made plans about going to Stockholm the 18th of september since Clem (from france) is coming for visit!! Furthermore, Rawan is talking about going to Göteborg and i would really like to go there to meet her again too! And later on i'll start to look for internship more seriously.. hopefully, with a little help from my brother, i'll go to Austraila.. cross fingers!! =)
Ahhhhh!! Feels soooo much better now!
Tomorrow, my sweet little Sheila will be back here and i'll start uni again. It's going to be perfect, can't wait!!!
Okay, it's now official... i CAN'T make flowers survive! I make all the possible mistakes; Too much water, too dry, too much sun or too dark. I just can't seem to get it right whatever i do. Two weeks before I took off to Umeå me and Johanna went to IKEA to buy some flowers. I was suppose to take care of them during these two weeks before Umeå. I managed to kill a flower which was the easiest to handle. This time, too much water! However, it's almost like i should get a nobel price or something "the worst plant attendants".. at least that's something! This was not the first time and probabaly not the last either..
It was a really cute flower/plant from the beginning... sorry flower but I suck!
A couple of weeks ago me and my siblings went to my big brother to take a trip with his boat. We went to see Stockholm by boat and it was just lovely! My sister noticed a sign on the boat that said "to avoid serious injury or death please turn off the engine before..." she read it to us in english "to avoid serious injury or death, please shut up!" the point is that my brother is, for sure, one of them who could have that kind of sign on his boat. Sometimes, he is having a hard time when people around him are talking too much so it would be perfect for him ;) and by the way.. what's the big deal? Shut off or shut up, it's almost the same, right?! =P
So.. to avoid getting killed by our brother you just have to Shut Up!! (that's a big problem for both me and my siblings)
For all of you who doesn't speek swedish: It's about a boy who send his balloon with a note that says "I wish you a happy spring". Now, several months later, a guy who was out in the forrest picking mushrooms found this balloon 600 kilometers from the school where the little boy send it away! The comment from the boy is "it was spring and i like spring".
I'm happy to see that there's still some sweetness left =)
This girl is unbelievable! She can make you smile even if you are totally down and depressed. The look in her face says that she is sooo happy and enjoying her life a 100%, she is so full of energy and joy!
Yesterday me and my family listened to some music.. we started with this song and suddenly we ended up singing and dancing to "oh happy day" all around the kitchen. Freak out time for sure, but that is life if you are a part of the Andersson family =)
I was talking to my cousin on msn (i should probably say that i'm a bit tired now which means that i have the most weird sense of humor) and we came up with the best idea. I love kids, i mean, i really do but sometimes they just go right on my nerves. So, imagine that you get a kid and when it (yeah i know but i want to call it 'it') turns 8 you'll have the opportunity to send it away to some other country to start school. Then you'll avoid both the age when it will whine and nag and at the same time you will have some time for yourself until the kid turns 18 and comes back. It will be like hitting two birds with one stone. And of course you can ask for permission to have the kid home for holidays like x-mas and easter. And now the best part.. our taxes will pay for that instead of paying for education here. What a great idea.. maybe i'll change my mind when i have to send my kid away but i'll deal with that issue later..
I remember one time when i was like 12 and my father called me and my sibling into the kitchen. When we got there we could see 4 plastic bags on the table. My father had decided to have a lesson in "bags-folding". He seriously went step by step to show us how to fold a bag. He argues that it will fit so many more bags in the drawer if we just fold them.
We still live by this rule and we get comments from our dad if we don't fold them correclty...
I hate the feeling when something really good happens, you get all excited about it and the only thing you want to do is to tell one person, one person that is not a part of our life anymore. That feeling just sucks..
